Nicole be Thinking...

I feel out of place in many of my classes at belmont... mostly because there is relatively no diversity. no color. no nothing. all my classes are kinda icky compared to the ones at sf state but my intermediate comp class has to be the worst. I'm the only black person in there and I think that the whiteys in there forget I'm there. some shit they say should definitely be kept to themselves.... today we read "a narrow fellow in the grass" by emily dickenson which is about the fear of the ambiguity of nature. basically its about a snake in the grass. to make us think about the poem, the prof. says.... "why isn't this poem set to rap music?" and I'm like..... wtf does that have to do with anything. some dude goes, with what he thinks is a "ghetto" accent "when you're strapped with your .9 a snake ain't so scary" and all these mofos laugh. and I'm just like...... whaaaaa? THEN the prof. says "yeah. its not ghetto or wh...

conversate is not a word. it's just not... don't know where that came from. today a girl who's probably in high school was relating a story about how "cory gets mad when [she] coversate with other guys." this could be because she is young... but i doubt it because grown ass people say it, too. the correct word is converse... not CONverse like the shoe, but kunVERSE. now... that doesn't sound as ghetto as conversate - perhaps there's the reason the word exists- but it's correct. it rained today! no. you don't understand... the other day me and chuck were getting in the car and i had a bunch of stuff so i put my arizona raspberry tea on the roof of my jeep so i could put my junk in the car... so i put my stuff in and drive off and all of a sudden we hear banging on the roof and chuck lives in the apartments on 12th, right by the ghetto, so her face was like "whaaaa?" [lol]. i forgot my tea and it rolled and dripped down my back window and m...

I'm not mad... I'm just being real... I'm finding that I am a little misunderstood.... I usually don't feel that I need to explain myself because in a very general sense I don't care what people perceive. however... I am extremely tired today [as in sleepy] and I think I'm gonna be misunderstood a lot today. granted, the people who misunderstand me aren't going to read this... but I'm bored and not in a position to sleep, so here goes... I'm not REALLY a racist. I joke about it a lot. I call myself a racist. I make comments that can be called racist. but in all actuality, I am just HONEST about my biases and prejudices. most people are not. I am afraid of white people on st. patricks day. you won't find me as a passenger in any asian's car. rich white people ARE very oblivious to "regular" people. these are things I know to be true for me. your experience might be different. that's fine. I am very open minded. I'll talk abou...

hmmm.... i'm watching a rerun of "top chef" [i looooooove that show...] and the chefs had to make a meal at 500 calories for the fat camp kids... i'm not sure how i feel about fat camps for children... or period for that matter.... when kids are fat and it's not genetic or because of a disease isn't it the parents's fault? shouldn't they have been feeding them a little better, or a little less? why would they want to ship their kids off to camp to learn how to eat better when in reality it's not the kids's eating patterns that need to change? the parents should be learning how to eat better, no? THEN they can teach their kids, who will most likely listen since they can't hold a gun to their parent's head and say, "hey bitch make me a rack of lamb." feeding kids isn't that hard... when i was younger, my mama fed me as much as i would eat but she also wouldn't feed me EVERY time i opened my fat mouth for food. as a resul...

i don't like beyonce's "upgrade u" video. i like the song. and under normal circumstances i like beyonce. HOWEVER... the video is an unnecessary commercial for her. i don't know how i pictured this video when i heard the song... but the actual video is the opposite of the... and the jay z parts... sooooo.... he could only be there to shoot half his rap? what's up with that? and the random crap in her mouth? huh? and what does her rolling around in water have to do with upgrading anybody? hmmm... in my opinion, the video DOWNGRADED the song... =[

tornado warnings are scarry. all day long they put stories about damage and death and how close its getting to me on the news... how frightening... they do it on purpose... a public that is afraid WILL sit captive and watch your tv programming all day just for those updates... YEAH I SAID IT. the local media purposely scares the public so we sit at home and do NOTHING with our days! lol... don't look at me like that. you know it makes sense. there's power in knowledge and walking away from the television. but no.... jokes aside, i am a little scared. last time i was here and there was a tornado watch/warning [i don't remember the difference but one is worse than the other...] i convinced my mother we NEEDED to go get some burgers from fat mo's [lol]. come to find out there was tornado damage literally 5-7 blocks from where we were... so yeah... i'm sitting my ass in the house today... at least until 3 when i have to go to work. =] what to do, what to do... this day ...